Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. (Hebrews 4:13)
The thought of God being able to see all that I say, think and do used to terrify me. The thought of having to give an account to an all-seeing Judge only intensified my fear. Having experienced some soul-twisting horror in my life, this felt like more of the same to me and I wanted no part of it.
But then some people who are part of the Body of Christ came alongside me. Slowly, ever so slowly, healing seeped into my heart through their loving care and I began to realize that the gaze of my heavenly Father was filled with love for me. My Father constantly keeps His eyes on me because He loves me.
With time, I began to understand that, even during my horror, Jesus was with me. At first, that realization was painful for me. But then I realized Jesus had been protecting me by making sure that the damage was not worse than it was and by making sure that it stopped happening. Eventually, I realized that Jesus was able to bring good out of evil in my life. He used my painful experiences to develop compassion within me, something that was not naturally there, a gift that can be used to help others experience healing and hope. What others meant for evil, God used for good, perhaps even the saving of many lives (Gen. 50:20).
God really does work for our good in all things (Rom. 8:28).
Now I can bask in the gaze of my heavenly Father because He loves me. Because of Jesus and His life, death and resurrection, I already know that my sin sentence has been paid in full, for Jesus has given His life in exchange for mine. I will stand in Jesus’ purity and innocence when I give an account to my Father. And His judgment will ring in my ears for all eternity: “You are my child, whom I love. With you I am well-pleased!”
I am no one special. Jesus has healing and forgiveness for you just like He does for me. Your heavenly Father loves you!
Dear Jesus, thank you for your love and grace. Help me to live constantly in the fullness of Your forgiveness. Help me to enjoy the loving gaze of our Father. Amen.